no title .

wanted to post this drawing a long time ago .

drew it for my love . do comment .

i wana know how it goes .

cause she keeps telling me its nice .

heartbreaker .

alot of those who are streamed in the river of love ,
dont realise how lucky they are ,
people , always complaining and mumbling ,
what is lack but not what is in front .
memories and love , tears and happiness
form a bridge in the process of love ,
to form a greater bond with your loved one .

look back , the moment you both hold hands ,
the moment you express your feelings for each other .
i think its worth anything in this world.
giving up the one u loved that easy ,
means u are very easy for odds .
every moment with your beloved ,
spells a word that cant be barely described ,
yet love explains all .

appreciate love , the one beside you
all the time :)

cause deep in your heart , you know ,
we both belong together .

cool .

pissed of when i realised that two of my piercings were actually up and down
after i got it for like two months . i was totally on fire and you want to know where i got them , its from a mini green shop in ipoh parade , from a fat girl . whatever , screw her .
i went google and search for up and down lobe , but i got these images in return ,
COOL .

check the holes , i wonder how he sneezes when something goes in . This guy is awesome , the pain , beyond words can describe .

cool huh . see what you see inside . great tolerance in unbearable pain .

untie me and kill me , if u dare .

i was like whatthefu*k , these guys are out of their mind but come to think of it , they have the guts and courage , the most unforgettable part is the excrusiating pain and the intense bleeding . Thumbs up . These guys are cool .

You can even insert things inside your holes .

Nice , signing out ,

.PEACE

FRIENDSHIP .devil or angel on the ship .

DEVIL .
okay . i blog again . once in a blue moon obviously .
last blog was kinda interesting , shooting and discrediting some bitch down from her so called imagination world , guess what , she got alot of supporters too u know , whatever .
u gain alot of knowledge on being a slut with her i guess , be my guest . being a coward and hiding under your so called world . stop blogging eventually prove that , stop denying .


Friendship, friend sitting together with you together in a ship ,
ya right , nice quote and fuck the nice quote .
friends seem to be long lasting , forever not ending ,
forever memorable , yet there is always an exclusion .
i was a good friend of his , but currently and instanly no longer one .
a summary of what he did , and its your business to listen or not to ,
i just want the whole world to know what he did as he is so good at hiding and making up .
he lied several times on just a small issue in paying up the compensation for something
he admitted he damaged it .
he created a lot of stories in front of others and hiding the fact on the mistakes he did .
and best of all , he accused his friends and back stabbing on them just to clean his own ass .
what a friend huh ? ya , endanger shit on the road . beware drivers , stray dogs are way better than him , cause dogs dont mess around , but he does , causing a mess , difficult to replace .
he left all the problems unsolved and wiped his clean ass and baded me goodbye . nice act .
he is a good lier and a pretender , even in front of someone he loved ,
he likes to pretend , like he is the innocent one . girl , if i were you , i will be extra carefull , cause u know why , he is a damn bloody son of a bitch .
he promised to keep secrets , but at the back , you can see secrets of yours being headlines highlighted . way cool man .
he takes advantages on people and desired for his own benefits .
stingy and not willing to spend on things we are supposed to pay .
taking advantage on friends , the longer the time i spend with you ,
the better i know you , such a good pretender , but u exposed your doggy tail , too bad .
even when u met me on the road , isnt it stupid for u to like turn your back together with your gf and pretend you are engaged in a call . such ridiculous man .
i think i should try to understand you , i mean , you did a hell lot of stupid things , you should be ashamed , maybe this is the reason why you turn your back on me , like how you deal with your problems , by turning your back on them when you encounter them .
again , i am blogging to express myself , to inform my friends , to beware of him , he is another good pretender and i dont wish to see my friends got involved with a guy like him .
staying with you for 6 months , i learn alot of things , i gain alot of experience ,
its a mistake at first for knowing a friend like u , oHllienaD .



ANGEL .
yet . though i experience such tragic , friends are still behind my back,
supporting me , these friends are really my true friends and they realised what is going on ,
they will never abandon me when i face probelms like this and of course , they will always be there for me even i am suffering under such predicament , especially Jx , you are the best .
u let me realise how a friend should ought to be . though sometimes you are kinda stupid and eventually mess everything up , but deep in your heart , i know you didnt mean any harm and you are an ideal friend for me . though sometimes things you mentioned didnt even make any sense at all , you are always the first one to help me under your capabilities besides my girl .
i treasure u alot like my other friends else . and you are my forever 'spin my head right around right around' best brother .
aun , fee , dun ,and the one sitting in front of the computer screen . thank you for being my friend and i treasure u alot like my other friends else .and of course i love my SugarOreaPuffHazelnutIcecreamAuthentically .your lips taste like candy making me melting under your love .

my blog ends here , any dissatisfaction , fight me . i am on for u .

SL .

she got those sexy lips,
she got those perfect eyes ,
she got those irresistable curly hair,
she got the fairest yet tempting complexion,
mostly , she got the sweetest attitude that could just melt me within seconds .
yet all these , not the main point .
is the link between us which makes me
love her like no other .

i was in love before .whatever it is .
it lasted not long enough to really
consider it as a relationship .never mind .
maybe this is what they called puppy love.i dont care.
maybe they are right .whatever .

but there is something special about her .
not like ordinary girl.i would say ,
beyond expectation , when you really get close to her .
she likes games .she likes trance .
she likes to fight.she likes pc stuff .
she likes what an ordinary girl will never want for her birthday present every year .
but in turn , what i like most about all this is
she likes the things i like and share the interest i am in .

sometimes we could talk unstoppable , disrupting people around us .
sometimes we could just start a conversation ,look at each other,
and its like i know what are u trying to say before really finishing it .
sometimes we just glance at each other,words are not the medium,
but the flow that makes us linking .me and you .
maybe this is what they call , beyond words could barely describe .

we can get crazy together .
we can fight among each other .
mostly we are happy together .
this is what every couple expect to be .

i am writing this blog . not hoping to show what and aiming to get what nessecary attention .
what really matters to me , is how she feel and how she act .i dont care what other people
trying to say and trying to do .its our problem and its 'us' problem . me and her .
i will love her and do what i can as in to do ,
to make her happy and to really make her know that i cherish her as
someone special to me ,in my heart
mind and soul .
mayo and thousand island , will forever be my choice,
not because since i met you ,
as i am into it all the time before i met you .
you are meant for me before i met you .
and occupied for me after i met you .
i love you .s

P.A.R.E.N.T.S

dont do this , dont do that .
sounds familiar .365days .repeating yet repeating .
pause it , u cant .forward it , the same .rewind it,dare you to .
parents .PARENTS ! love yet bothering ?BOTHERING !
like they are always controling your life ? nagging your stuff ?
checking on your friends ? stalking where are you heading ?
okay .fine .that sounds exaggerated . they do .
its like they are born to do so .i mean professional .
maybe some parents wont , but i would say mostly would .
just because u split something,accidentally. just because u go out late at night ,to have just a bit of fun .
just because u failed your history ,so what . no big deal .
just because u argued with your siblings or cousins ,they started it.
just because u are rude , anything ,its not offensive !
they will look at your face in that angry red yet horrible eyes , and shout at u .
it is indeed a crime so not to commit !
there is this stupid bullshit quote .
spare the rod , and u spoil the child .
thanks to this so called quote .i got a great issue with this so called rod .
those days , i scream , i jump , i hide , i cry . no matter what attempts i tried ,uselss. i guess my parents are too good for me . i mean ,i cant escape from them , the canning , the everything .
pain , hatred , revenge .
that is what i odd to think . when the canning is successfully carried out .
that is how my childhood works , u split the shit ,u pay for it ,u can run from it ,but in the end , u cant do anything about it , all these cannings still await .
sweet yet memorable .
but come to think of it .
without them , i would say , i am nothing .
they gave me life .they gave me what i am now .they gave me light and direction .
i would say the knowledge , the support , the education ,last but not least ,
their love .
9 months , your mum took the courage yet all the shit from her , i would say her life,just to gain the hope of having u .
the pain ,beyond excruciating , that words cant described , just to deliver you .
to take u as their child .for ?for ? nothing .
the exhaustion , the sweat , the pressure , to raise u up .for ? for ? nothing .
they work like a cow , under the unbearable sun , the scorching heat , just to earn the food u are having now .for ?for ?nothing .
yes,they do cane u , reprimand u ,set all these so called rules for u to follow .just hoping you to become a well principled and diciplined person .but for ? for what ?
nothing .
every move , every step , every tear they eventually shed . is meant for u .
for ?for ?nothing .
nothing . there is for one point yet reason they did all this crap , took all this shit , gain all this pressure , all this pain , shed all this endless tears , to raise u up .
from a non-stop crying ,annoying ,disturbing child to a grown up adult .and what they get in return ?
for those endless night , the process of raising u up . it is more like burning money yet all their time and part of their life , just hoping that u would become a better person .
what they eventually gain ? NOTHING .
what they eventually got ? NOTHING .
what they eventually have ?NOTHING .
but you ?EVERYTHING .every single piece of love they gave you .
but why ? why ?why it is so .
parents .that is what they are . you and mine . parents .
if they could , i would say , they would burn every single shit out of themselves , just to get u going through the daily life , sacrificing everything they could ,
just to see you pass through the process of life , with success .
just to see you holding triump and victory , that others hardly can .
they just want us to become someone usefull in this so called life .
SATISFIED ?YES.THEY ARE .simple yet torchering process for them to achieve .
parents . sigh . wonderfull yet loving .sacrificing yet the same loving . till death , yes . they are . to u and to me .
under estimate them , never will i ,
for the things they did , for the love they sacrifice .
for no return . for no return .
through all this process , they are getting older and older .
it is indeed the turn for us to take care of them and the same time to play their role , as PARENTS .
it is a routine , i would say .this is how love flows .
though sometimes they are abit nagging and indeed demanding ,
but all they care is for our own good , for our so called future .
so , bear with it . it is not gonna kill you,take your life or something .
recall the hardship your parents gone through to raise u,
and this is how u treat them ,yelling at them , throwing tantrums at them ,
calling them to get out of your life , telling them u will be better without them .
heartaching , for the pain they undergo all these years to raise u.
this is what they get ?
the odd part is , i sometimes get to understand my parents as time passes .
parents again . not long lasting . treasure them .as they will eventually die .
their love , yet will forever be remembered .i love my parents . so do u .

nobody dies a virgin .cause in the end .life fuck us all .so bear with it ;p

i believe there is no perfection in this so called world . it gives me the feeling that i am the only one living in this so called life .eventually all of us will get into deep sleep when we are old yet by ages of exhaustion where they so called this death . imagine will there be life after death . whatever it is .
people is working for nothing . they work , they yield ,they perspire ,they fall ,they cry , but in the end ,
they die .
i cant convince myself is there another positive side of doing all this without realising ,
we are pacing our footstep closer to nothing but death ,for if there is , hell .
everyday , the same routine . the same events . the same people .
will all this come to an end . but what i mean in this end , is not death ,
but something more rewarding ,rather than going to hell .
people . people . people .
jobs . jobs .jobs .
work . work .work .
but there is one aspect that i hate the most from all of this is ,
the older u get , the bigger the responsibilities u are gaining .
i rather be gaining fats rather than all this bullshit responsibilities .
sometimes i just wonder can i get back to the past ,
when i was a small baby ,where i need not to care anything .
but that sounds stupid ,right .no matter what it is ,
we will all eventually die .
sorry . i dont believe in THE-all MIGHTY so called
GOD . i only believe in reality .all the things u do , all the stuff u bullshit , is on urself ,is like you are what you are . there is no God . no nothing .thats me .
to me , life is just a process .
when it meets its end . its done with us . nothing . just done .thats all . sad yet pathetic .
diseases . injuries .wounds .fights . it is just a summary of torcherous process where we all undergo .
wars , politics ,economics , whatever it is . everything is not long lasting . and not stable .
thats life .u can just walk across the road , avoid being hit by a car , avoid everything ,
but in the end , u cant avoid death .
i just wana say, to all the people outside , enjoy life , i dont believe in God ,there might be these so called angels , but no matter what it is , try your best , to craft your own life , get the best fuck of life , where death will meet you in the end from all this crap of bullshit .